single and going on 30......

I dont know why i think about blogging only when i feel so alone ????? Coming back from my previos post...It was an amazing wedding season...Had too much fun...Two of closest people are married and voila all the pressure on me to tie the knot...hahahaha

Touching 30 and single i guess is the worst thing a woman can ever do...Let me rephrase that...its the worst thing an Indian woman can do....suddenly you feel guilty of having your parents under pressure ..your friends only keep talking about you enrolling your name on a matrimonial site and i think that all girls face the same dilemma and go through a marriage sometimes only to keep their family's name in society and to prove that she can get a guy to get married. But is that right ??Its like jumping in the sea if you are husband turns out to be good...amazing..your lucky and by chance if not...you have 2 options

1. stay in and ADJUST

2. get divorced and single again but be ready for some weird looks and society stigma

You would say : why the f**k do we care about the damn society ....Let them think what they want to ...

I've thought about it, I think we dont worry about society...We worry about disappointing our parents in society ...every time a relative says...so wats your daughter doing...OHH not married yet ???!!?? Kya hua??

I think we dont want to hurt them....

I am in the same dilemma...My guy left me after 10 years when i was 28...For no fault of mine...but i doubt he has to hear that much about his single-hood than what i have to hear......why this gender bias ..cant we enjoy our single-hood as well....i dont know whether not disappointing my loved ones is more important than my freedom, my emotions and my will...I feel so trapped that i dont know what to do....why should girls be blamed if they are committed...why isn't the same yardstick applied for boys...In out stereo type society a 50 year old single man is seen as responsible who did not have time to get married and a 50 year old woman ...ppl will say.."zaroor kuch jhol kiya hoga...typical society.......and THE ETERNAL QUESTION :should i succumb to the pressure and tie the knot...or stay single (and happy if i may add) and get married only if i get a guy whom i truly love and who loves me......DECISION PENDING